AimanSyahmi

2012-01-13T17:08:00.001-08:00

Harini bangun lambat dan tiada text dari dia suruh aku bangun utk solat subuh. Dah mula rindu.

2012-01-03T07:38:00.001-08:00

I don't know if im able to be strong enough tomorrow.

2011-11-29T21:32:00.000-08:00

At the age of 3, he was sent to an orphanage.
Unable to withstand the beatings, he ran away.
At the age of 5, he's sleeping in the public toilets.
Worked through his entire life.
Even under hard circumstances,
he kept going on.

Sung Bong Choi

-

2011-10-15T06:17:00.000-07:00

It hurts when i have go through all this but she won't even come talk to me.

-

2011-10-11T17:04:00.000-07:00

promises are meant to be kept.

2011-09-28T05:42:00.000-07:00

Finally im updating. Been pretty busy lately. So, what's been up with my life lately. Exams, exams, tuition, exams. Please do emphasize on EXAMS. Still haven't started yet, but im taking all the precautionary measures. Big word, yes i know but its something i must do. I am not using any mobile phones at the moment since i got into some problem with my dad. I guess its best if i just give up the fight rather than make things worse.

But everything else seems to be ok. Things with Mira are just awesome ! Not having a phone makes it hard for me to contact her, missing her more and more byt the day.Guess what, today's our 5 month-sary together. Wish i could give her something better, next time :) School's been good too. Too bad it's going to end soon. Really gonna miss the random moments, the laughs, the volleyball matches and all the moments with my classmates. Next year will be my last year in school. Got a lot of plans, not sure if i can them of all though. InsyaAllah.

Later, peace be upon you.

Azali bin Abdul Karim

2011-09-11T19:29:00.001-07:00

Atuk ku, born and raised in Klang. Survived the second world war. He's a very disciplined man, so i've been told since he's been paralyzed since i was like, 2 ?

In 2006, my Acu Jan got married in Klang. My grandparents house. All of my cousins was there. It was chaotic, loads of fun. And i still remember the conversation my mother had with my atuk.

MamaAtuk
Bapak, sihat ?
Sihat
Ni budak budak ni semua duduk sini tak bising ke ?
Bising sangat
Hahah, bapak tak kisah?
Tak, seronok pun ada.
So nanti kalau diorang nak tidur sini lagi, boleh ?
Boleh, apa salahnya. Bapak pun lagi suka.

From this, i know that my atuk loves seeing his family being happy together. And that he really wants us to be like that again. Unfortunately, that was the last time we had a gathering like that when he's still alive. The latest one was yesterday. Everyone was there, the Singaporeans, the Penangs, Ipohs and of course the ones from Selangor. But it was just too late.

I believe it was in 2000 when he had a terrible accident. Causing him to have stroke. Slowly malfunctioning his body to move. It made him into this silent man. The complete opposite from the stories i've heard about him. A strong, charismatic, army-style
discipline kind of guy.

Now, he's gone. Hopefully he's placed among the ones pleased by Allah. InsyaAllah.

Till then, assalamualaikum.

2011-08-25T11:50:00.001-07:00

2011-08-23T10:03:00.001-07:00

There's a difference between talking face to face and talking on the phone.

2011-08-18T22:44:00.000-07:00

lol

2011-08-18T22:24:00.001-07:00

Are-bear Aiman

Eh man, dah 4 minggu berturut turut aku nampak kau lepak je kat tangga ni. Apa hal ?
Mana ada pape, tunggu kawan je.
Hmm, tunggu awek nak cover lagi kata tunggu kawan.
#dan are bear pun bela meninggalkan aku#

2011-08-16T19:08:00.001-07:00

Apa jua keadaan, susah atau senang, saya tetap akan menemani awak meneruskan kehidupan.

2011-08-16T19:05:00.001-07:00

2011-08-12T02:10:00.000-07:00

it hurts so bad, the only thing i can do is look the other way and say that im fine.

2011-08-11T03:29:00.000-07:00

I guess your trust is something i didn't get. Kay, takpe. I faham.

2011-08-06T13:36:00.001-07:00

Buntu

2011-08-04T22:24:00.001-07:00

"Please reply IM i sayang, i miss you.
I nak luangkan masa dengan you, tu sebab i tunggu you sampai sekarang ni :D"

Perkataan perkataan tuuu, just makes me feel <3

2011-08-04T10:14:00.001-07:00

I tried to talk, but that only made things worst.

Now, im lying on my bed with sore eyes that hurts and a heartache that hurts more. Waiting ~~for her to pick up her phone~~ for sahur

2011-08-03T22:35:00.001-07:00

It would be nice to have someone that's happy to see me.

2011-08-03T13:49:00.001-07:00

I hate waking up and seeing there's a text from the person i was waiting to call :(

2011-08-03T07:47:00.001-07:00

Dialah yang membuat saya gelak apabila ianya susah untuk senyum

Dialah yang memberi saya semangat apabila saya memerlukan

Saya amat menyayangi dia, dan saya harap dia juga menyayangi saya x)

Nama dia Mira. Dia lah segalanya buat saya :)

2011-08-02T00:41:00.001-07:00

2011-08-01T10:43:00.000-07:00

im not gonna sleep tonight.

Cause for once, the reality is better than my dreams.

Even if i dream of her,

Mimpi yang paling best sekalipun,

Im still gonna miss her,

Mira <3

2011-08-01T10:13:00.000-07:00

Life Update

Hey, so it's Ramadhan now. Dont feel much different cause i've been fasting for 2 weeks before Ramadhan, so yeah.

Before Ramadhan, me and my bros entered the MyChallenge. And we got into the semis, which are over too hahah. Still waiting for the results #fingerscrossed

It's been 4 days since i've seen my dad, i miss him :(

So now, it's 1.20 in the morning. A couple years ago, i might be skyping with someone but that's another story.

Mira's already sleeping i guess, starting to miss her already :( x10

Mama said that my dad might be coming home tonight, so i'll try to stay awake to see him when he gets here :)

Oh one last thing, i had a duel with the mosquitoes which i won of course, with the help of my secret weapon called shieldtox, or was it ridsect ? x) haha, totally pointless.

Kay, bye now. Happy fasting !

2011-08-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

2011-08-01T04:45:00.001-07:00

Kenapa mesti tinggalkan orang mcm tu ?

Susah sgt ke nak ckp bye ? -.-

2011-07-29T08:44:00.001-07:00

Buat penat je bersengkang mata.

~~dah ada orang lain ganti tempat aku rupanya~~

2011-07-29T03:26:00.000-07:00

Memang saya adalah seorang yang baran

Tapi saya tak pernah mencederakan sesiapapun

Walaupun saya sendiri pernah dicederakan

2011-07-28T01:18:00.001-07:00

Mcm ada something je.

2011-07-21T23:59:00.001-07:00

2011-07-21T06:57:00.001-07:00

Dear, Miss M

I am humbly turning down that offer :p yknw, there's a reason i think that you're the one for me, cause there's only you la hahaha x)

I guess what im trying to say is that i am forever yours and i will love you for even longer. Only you sayang :)

LOL,
Aiman

2011-07-20T04:39:00.001-07:00

You're slowly breaking my heart

2011-07-12T02:49:00.000-07:00

Keep on telling yourself one thing and you'll end up believing it. Like a break up perhaps ? Oh, it did happen

2011-07-10T09:54:00.001-07:00

Kay, now i really have to go to sleep.

2011-07-10T09:19:00.001-07:00

Sebak di dada tak dapat lagi ku tahan.

Tadi je, skrg dah ok sikit. Lagipun dah lewat dah ni, and esok sekolah. Dia pun dah nyenyak tidur kot. Time utk aku pula tidur. Aku je yg tak call time dia suruh.

2011-07-10T08:42:00.001-07:00

Its gonna be 12 soon and still waiting for her to text me :)

2011-07-09T21:42:00.000-07:00

Aku tak tahu kenapa.

Tapi...

Aku suka cari benda baru yg menyakitkan hati sendiri.

Dugaan

2011-07-09T21:37:00.000-07:00

Ala, hidup aku ni. Dah biasa sangat dilupakan. Tapi nak buat mcm mana, ~~lek wat peace je laa~~

2011-07-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

2011-07-08T03:50:00.001-07:00

2011-07-06T19:49:00.001-07:00

I miss my Mira :(

Ingat ke nak call malam tadi, tapi dah penat sangat. Sorry :/

2011-07-06T19:45:00.001-07:00

Why won't you just let me walk you home !!!!

Setiap kali i nak jalan dgn you, mesti tak boleh. Sanggup ikut jalan lain pula tu -.- Kenapa tak boleh ?

za

2011-07-04T06:24:00.001-07:00

Yes i am jealous. I just can't stand the thought of another guy making you happier than i can.

2011-07-04T04:43:00.003-07:00

Yes, i am jealous

2011-07-04T04:43:00.001-07:00

Rules of a boyfriend

2011-07-04T03:58:00.001-07:00

Eh, nak pegang tangan girlfriend sendiri pun tak boleh ke ? x)

2011-07-04T01:01:00.001-07:00

"Ha'elaa, dah la kena madu dengan Brian."

Sumpah sakit hati bhai bila orang ckp mcm tu

2011-07-04T00:59:00.001-07:00

4 jam dekat the store -.-

2011-07-03T06:49:00.001-07:00

And here i am,
Sitting here all by myself
Wishing you are here
By my side

~~I could have just topped up~~

Mira, i miss you sayang.

2011-07-03T00:20:00.001-07:00

Mira,

I miss you like crazy ! <3

2011-07-02T04:49:00.001-07:00

Mira Azrina,

i love
you

P/s:so so much

2011-07-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

2011-07-02T00:53:00.000-07:00

2011-07-01T07:40:00.001-07:00

Bukankah ianya tanggungjawab seorang lelaki untuk untuk mempertahankan maruah seorang wanita ? Selain daripada menjaga martabatnya dengan tegas namun tetap menghormati wanita itu. Bukankah itu amanah yang telah disampaikan oleh Rasulullah kepada setiap lelaki di dunia ini.

Tetapi mengapakah amanah ini tidak dipikul oleh kaum lelaki pada zaman kini ? Namun ianya adalah suatu perkara norma sekiranya seseorang laki itu merosakkan akhlak dan makhkota seseorang wanita itu. Apakah kita telah ketandusan lelaki ?

Siapakah aku untuk menolak amanah yang sepatutnya aku pikul? Amanah yang disampaikan oleh Rasul aku sendiri.

2011-07-01T03:31:00.001-07:00

2011-06-30T22:13:00.001-07:00

i'd tell you i'm sorry,
I'd tell you i miss you,
~~But i dont think it would make much difference.~~

2011-06-30T08:14:00.001-07:00

penat

2011-06-29T09:33:00.001-07:00

I do not own any of the pictures, they are taken from rules of a gentleman

Jamming

2011-06-29T03:31:00.001-07:00

Setelah beberapa bulan aku bersara drpd dunia kugiran, tadi aku gi jamming. Mula mula, aku main drum. Mungkin sbb aku tak pernah main drum dgn band kot, timing lari sikit.

So, im going back to my old job, ~~lead ?~~ guitarist.

2011-06-29T03:26:00.001-07:00

another first time

•sneaking into your girlfriend's class just to put a love note

Hahahahahahahahaahqh

Jiwangz

2011-06-28T07:13:00.001-07:00

Walaupun perasaan cinta dan kasih sayang merupakan fitrah ALLAH, tetapi kita perlu sedar bahawa keabadian cinta tidak akan diperoleh sebagai satu anugerah tanpa diiringi usaha dan susah payah

-the end-

2011-06-28T04:29:00.001-07:00

Having a busy week. Tiring to be exact.

2011-06-27T04:44:00.000-07:00

Ah fuck it

Black and white's boring

Blue and red

Since superman came to mind

Comments are unnecessary

But they are most welcome

renovations

2011-06-27T02:58:00.000-07:00

This blog's having a new look.

Still keeping the black and white theme.

But if you have a keen eye, you can see the colours i added.

Or even the secret messages i've made

2011-06-27T01:31:00.000-07:00

Tetiba banyak lah pula rules of a gentleman update x)

2011-06-25T04:27:00.000-07:00

Why is it that some people lose their faith in god so easily ?

2011-06-24T01:12:00.001-07:00

Dari Allah kita datang

Kepada-Nya jugalah kita akan kembali

Persoalannya hanyalah satu dan tiada duanya

Bila ?

2011-06-22T05:40:00.000-07:00

People will only judge you by your actions but not your intentions. You can have a heart of gold, but so is a hard boiled egg.

-unknown-

When we judge or criticize another person, it says nothing about that person; it merely says something about our own need to be critical.

-unknown-

Lol

2011-06-21T10:58:00.001-07:00

She's funny. She's adorable. She's sweet. She's loving. She's awesome. She's perfect. I didn't say a name. But im sure you all know it's Mira x)

~~inspired from tumblr~~

2011-06-21T06:31:00.000-07:00

Mira, will you be my one ? :)

2011-06-17T20:23:00.001-07:00

i am a complex guy with an even more complex brain. Sometimes i over assume the situation to an extent which is more worse than the reality. There are also times where the words that i say dont really project the thoughts that are really in my mind.

2011-06-17T19:36:00.001-07:00

2011-06-17T11:51:00.000-07:00

Like any normal human being, there are always room for improvement. We can learn from our own personal experience or in some cases, we can seek help from other sources such as friends or perhaps reading materials.

2011-06-15T02:32:00.001-07:00

Puan zarina Aiman

aiman, what's wrong with you today ? Tired ? What happened to your smile that i always enjoy seeing ?

i just cant smile when im feeling the complete opposite of that on the inside.

Obvious sangat ke yang aku bad mood ?

2011-06-14T06:07:00.001-07:00

Ignore the "rule of a lady".

2011-06-14T04:18:00.001-07:00

I want to be there for you, Mira.

Kehidupan

2011-06-14T03:02:00.000-07:00

Memang betul, hidup ini adalah pemberian yang amat besar nilainya daripada yang Maha Esa. Tapi dalam kehidupan ini juga, ada pahit manisnya, ada saat saat perit getirnya. Di mana ada suka, di situ lah juga ada dukanya kan ? Tapi jangan lah kita terlampau kecewa disebabkan oleh sesuatu yang telah berlaku.

Seperti, mungkin bagi mereka yang tidak mendapat keputusan yang elok dalam peperiksaan. Jangan lah cakap yang diri sendiri tu bodoh atau memang tak boleh nak buat. Macam aku, sebelum pmr. Tak pernah dapat a. Kalau pass pun, ngam ngam je la. Mula mula, memang la kecewa. Tapi ada pada satu saat, aku tengok paper aku dengan penuh kekecewaannya dan aku pun cakap kat diri sendiri"ni lah last time aku akan rasa macam ni, lepasni takde dah.". Memang macam klishe, tapi aku ni kan penuh dengan drama, biasa la :P Lepastu, aku belajar. Mana yang tak faham, tanya. Last last dapat 5 ketul a dalam pmr. Aku tahu la takde hebat mana pun, tapi cukup lah untuk mengukir senyuman dekat muka mak dengan ayah aku tu.

"Bila kita dah berusaha sepenuhnya, sesungguhnya Allah akan memberi kita balasan yang sebaiknya. Kalau masih bukan yang kita harapkan, mungkin masih belum tiba masanya untuk kita merasai kejayaan itu. Hanya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk hambanya dan juga masa yang terbaik untuk mereka menerimanya. Janganlah kecewa sangat."

-Puan Siti Raudhah (ustazah aku time form 3)-

2011-06-13T06:43:00.001-07:00

Im suppose to be helping her going through all this. Bukannya menambahkan lagi masalah dia. Bukannya lagi mengada-ngada nak suruh dia luangkan masa dengan aku.

Lagi bagus kalau aku lupakan je la kemarahan aku yg bersifat tak matang ni. So what kalau mmg ye pun dia malu nak lepak dgn aku, bukannya macam aku ni someone yang patut dibanggakan pun.

2011-06-13T02:38:00.001-07:00

I am a gentleman in my own ways.

2011-06-12T04:00:00.001-07:00

I like how my blog looks on mobile :)

Life lesson

2011-06-11T19:47:00.001-07:00

Letting go of my ego and anger just so i can see someone else be happy.

By the end of the day, knowing that she's happy makes me happy too.

There is such a thing as a win win situation :)

~~Though, it can be pretty hard at times. Thats where my kesabaran kicks in.~~

life update

2011-06-11T11:21:00.001-07:00

So, today i just got back from Sabah. My flight landed around 5 hours ago which was somewhere around 8.30 pm.

So... sabah. Land below the wind. They should've call it land below the pouring clouds instead. It was raining eversince i came to Kota Kinabalu. Fortunately, it didnt rain that heavily on thursday and friday, so we got to do some fun stuffs. Instead of writing a long post, maybe i should just post pictures showing how fun it was. But unfortunately, i've already promised someone to show her the pictures first.

Bummer eyh ? Even he's dissapointed. Lol. That's my lil brother btw. He just likes to make stupid pose.

See, he's just messing with you. He's fiiine. Dont worry.

Sorry guys for not posting the pictures. But a promise is a promise. Though i doubt she's even interested to see them :(

Sumpah aku tergelak bila kawan aku tanya ni.

2011-06-10T20:20:00.001-07:00

dude, how can turn down so many sex ? Are you gay ?

Aku bukan gay lah wahai brother brother sekalian :)

2011-06-10T20:06:00.001-07:00

A loser asks for sex. But a winner gets ask to have sex.

-anonymous-

Its been quite awhile

2011-06-10T10:01:00.001-07:00

Yes people, im in a relationship with someone that i really love. Haha, cerita lamakan ? Cerita lama pun org still tanya macam macam.

Its been quite awhile since my last relationship. Maybe sebab takut akan jadi mcm the last one kot ? Ended with dissapointment and despair. Tapi takpe, tu semua cerita lama.

Now, im with her. She's this beautiful and amazing person that's more than willing to deal with my flaws and immaturity in her life. And i really do love her. 143637 sayang :)

2011-06-08T07:27:00.001-07:00

Sabah is fun :)

2011-06-03T10:36:00.000-07:00

Siapa kata jadi lelaki senang ? takde siapa pun sebenarnya, hahaha. cuma sebelum ni aku budak budak, tak tahu macam mana jadi lelaki yang betul betul. yang aku tahu complaint je tahu, yang ni tak betul, yang tu tak betul. Biasa la kan budak budak :)

Hari ni, boleh dikatakan aku punya first time la jaga adik adik aku dekat luar. Pergi solat jumaat. Lepas solat, selipar aku hilang. Selamat la selipar murah, kalau tak jangan harap la aku nak kasi jemaah tu semua balik. Kembali ke usul asal. Mula mula, plan nak balik jalan kaki, tapi takkan la nak jalan kaki ayam kot ? gila ke apa. so aku kena la jaga adik adik aku kat masjid tu sampai mak aku sampai. masalah takde la besar mana, hahahaha.

Cuma, aku terfikir la juga bila aku dah besar nanti aku jadi lelaki macam mana. Yela kan, expiry date aku dekat smkbrp dah nak sampai dah, then aku dah kena semi-independent. Kalau nak harapkan bapa aku je, macam mana nak berjaya kan ? aku pun nak juga ada nama sendiri. Takde la sampai masuk surat khabar ke apa, cuma cukup la sekadar nak buat orang tua aku bangga dengan aku.

Tapi yang paling aku taknak la kan, jadi lelaki dayus. Mula mula aku ingat lelaki dayus ni kalau pukul pukul perempuan je. Rupa rupanya banyak lagi deeer. Start darilah zaman bercinta lagi, in other words time couple couple la. First, kalau menurut Islam la kan, cemburu itu digalakkan. Kalau tak cemburu, dikategorikan sebagai dayus. Yelakan, cuba bayangkan kalau takde perasaan cemburu kalau nampak si teman dengan lelaki lain. Kalau biar je, mesti la dia buat benda lain pulakan.

Second, lelaki dayus adalah seorang lelaki yang membiarkan pasangan dia membuka aurat kepada orang lain. Kalau ikutkan, memang dari dulu aku nak someone yang tutup aurat. Kalau ada ex aku yang baca, jangan terasa, ada juga yang dah start pakai tudung :). Kembali kepada usul asal. Tapi, tah macam ayu je, sejuk hati bila pandang. Tapi zaman skrg ni, pakai tudung tapi bontot still tersembol kat belakang, takde guna lakan, taknak yg macam tu. Tapi sekarang, alhamdulillah, aku dah jumpa dah :) nama diaaaa, hehehe, mana boleh bagitau. Tersedak sedak pula dia, korang cakap nama dia nanti :P

So sekarang, aku rasa dah tiba masanya aku memulakan hidup sebagai seorang lelaki yang matang. Tapi taknak la 100% matang, lebih kurang mcm 60% matang, 40% kebudak budak :) Kalau 100% matang, tak syok la kan.

2011-06-03T09:02:00.000-07:00

he's on top of my idol list. Im trying to play like him, tapi susah gila -.-

2011-06-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

Hadis, banyak telah aku belajar daripada kau :)

2011-06-02T19:36:00.001-07:00

-_-

2011-06-02T07:39:00.001-07:00

something's fishy O.o

~~maybe i just need to trust her more ?~~

LOLOLOLOLOL x)

2011-06-02T06:44:00.001-07:00

"He's the man that you love and he's asking you to do something that's very important to him. Its either him or your ego.

-private practice-

2011-06-02T04:09:00.001-07:00

seribu satu soalan yang tidak akan terjawab.

2011-06-02T00:34:00.001-07:00

Send a Teddy Bear Note at WiddlyTinks.com

2011-06-01T23:58:00.001-07:00

Im just like a kid. I still take my everyday naps from 2 to 4.

2011-06-01T22:27:00.001-07:00

Black hawk down. Never gets old :)

2011-06-01T08:54:00.001-07:00

Yela, mana tau kalau ada orang tu dah topup pastu nak text dgn saya time dekat dalam wayang tu :p

2011-05-31T21:24:00.001-07:00

I get it if you wanna let me go :(

2011-05-31T19:40:00.001-07:00

Mira Azrina
I miss you
Sebab you tgh baca ni you
pun rindu dekat i la kan ? Im sorry pasal malam tadi :(

apa yang i boleh buat utk buat you happy ? love <3

2011-05-31T16:51:00.000-07:00